Manifestation 101: Your Dreams are Growing

Three of Pentacles from The Goddess Tarot

Three of Pentacles from The Goddess Tarot

 

Well my dears I have been away too long. I needed to take a short sabbatical from blogging while I got my new website pulled together and finished my intuitive coaching coursework. It has been a full year so far, and I’m happy to get back into my writing rhythm. I’ve missed you!

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So,with all that said… I’m jumping back in with a look at the Three of Pentacles. It’s a great earthy card and that means taking action, learning through experience, and seeing tangible results ~ something is blooming and it’s time to celebrate the progress and share it. It’s time to let folks into the studio, the kitchen, the portfolio, the manuscript, the business… whatever it is you’ve been working on and dreaming about. The Three of Pentacles has a message about the stage of manifestation that can sometimes be a little tricky… especially if you’re inner perfectionist has a loud voice.

So let’s talk a bit about manifesting. When I use this word I’m talking about taking something intangible {like an idea, a dream, a vision} and making it into an experience ~ something you can see, touch, taste, hear, and smell. You’re bringing it into form.

Manifesting is a CREATIVE process regardless of the vision. You could have an idea for a totally left-brained financial business, a dream to write your artsy novel, or an amazing plan for your family’s next dream vacation. Regardless of the scenario ~ you’re now in the creative process of making it happen, and there are some necessary steps that have to be taken along the way in order to achieve success. Here are the basic stages. I can’t seem to think about manifesting without using a gardening metaphor… so here goes:

  1. The Seedling: In the beginning stages you have to nurture your dream and let it gestate a bit. This is where you go inward, connect with your spirit and let it fuel your exploration. You may feel like a novice during this stage because you’ll probably need to learn some new skills, do some research, practice your craft, and build your confidence. There will be a lot of “firsts” during this phase, and it’s a delicate time because it’s easy to get the wind knocked out of your sails from an unkind remark or a rejection. That’s why you need a greenhouse. There will be times when it’s best to keep quiet about your work, get busy behind the scenes, and be selective about who you share with.
  2. The Healthy Plant: You’ve sprouted, and it’s time to grow full-out. You’re getting some traction and you’re ready to put your creation out into the world. You’ve basically learned everything you can from the safe incubator of the greenhouse. Your research is done, and you’ve practiced and mastered the skills you were able to cultivate in that environment. The only way to grow now is to get out in the bigger garden {the world} and get some experience under your belt. It’s time to share the big idea, get feedback, collaborate, and learn by doing. Action is your new best friend.
  3. The Flourishing Garden: At this stage you are hitting your stride. You’ve cleared many of the outer and inner blocks, and while you’re still learning and growing ~ you feel more confident. You’ve got healthy roots, and it’s easier to expand and send out new shoots of inspiration. You’re in the creative flow.
  4. The Harvest: You’ve got a solid foundation, and your creativity is able to expand exponentially. Your ideas come to fruition much more quickly because you have created a base for abundance. You have more resources at your fingertips and even though you will continue to create and will go through these stages over and over again, you are mastering manifestation and things come together more quickly and more joyfully.

The Three of Pentacles is guiding us through Stage 2, and I often find that this can be one of the most difficult transitions. Taking yourself out of the safe inner sanctum of research into a more active and visible place in the world can be a little scary, but It’s also a time to embrace and celebrate.

It took a lot of work to get to this stage, and it takes courage to put it into action. If this is where you are, pat yourself on the back because this is HUGE! The important thing to remember is that you are not alone because no matter how slick the marketing, or how confident the people in stages 3 and 4 look… they had to go through stage 2 to get there.

We don’t always hear about Stage 2 because it’s kind of like the adolescence of manifestation. It’s not so glamorous, but it’s beautiful nonetheless and the place we do our most profound transformation. The Three of Pentacles is encouraging you to be brave because you’re READY. You don’t need to incubate anymore, you need to take action and have fun while you’re doing it. Hold onto your vision but let it rest gently in your hand instead of squeezing it tightly. The Divine has your back and this is exactly where you’re supposed to be. It’s part of the process, and every experience you have now is leading you to that amazing Harvest that got you excited to begin the journey in the first place. xo

 

True Courage and the Power of Your Inner Wildness

Strength from the Druid Craft Tarot

Strength from the Druid Craft Tarot

Strength is the 8th card of the Major Arcana and traditionally depicts a young woman with her arms around a lion.  This Druid inspired deck depicts a boar instead of a big cat, but in both cards the symbol is one of tamed power.  The lesson of this card is about merging with and harnessing the feral aspects of one’s soul and making friends with that wildness.  The message it brings is: Your strength lies in your ability to have faith, let go, and work from the inside out rather than the outside in.  Strength lies in authenticity and honesty with yourself and others.  It’s time to stop playing roles for other people.  It’s time to start moving through the world with solid, grounded footsteps, taking good care of your body, being very truthful with yourself and wide awake with your emotions.

When you tap into the powerful, fiery energy of Strength, you feel courageous.   Your passions come alive and you have everything you need to see them through ~ not because you’re working hard to create that force, but because you are harmoniously allowing it to flow through you.  Ultimately it teaches that true strength lies in wholeness, and the way to wholeness is through gentle self-compassion.

How does this wildness show up?  In the negative, it shows up when we’re weak-willed, numbed-out, or addicted ~ that’s when it’s ruling us.  In the positive, it brings about passion and inspiration ~ that’s when we’re in harmony with it.  The Strength card is about realizing that we need to be awake and aware of what is going on in our physical bodies, emotional bodies, mental and spiritual bodies.  It’s time as Mary Oliver puts it, “… to let the warm animal of your body love what it loves.”  This will lead you right into knowing where you belong in the “family of things” {from the poem “Wild Geese”}.  Strength wants us to integrate all our scattered pieces through deep and abiding self-compassion.  You don’t tame the beast by beating it down ~ you tame it through love and acceptance. 

Let the crisp cold air of winter help you wake up and notice where you’ve been checking out.  Let your honest and authentic self be what shows up in the world.  Strength is about reclaiming self-esteem and channeling that energy into your true passions.  When you’re embodying this lesson you won’t have to go to battle, defend yourself, and fight to be strong.  You’ll know that your strength resides in your authentic nature.  You have accepted and lovingly tamed the parts of you that seemed wild, unacceptable, or out of control by loving them ~ a truly bold and courageous act.

Here’s a checklist to help you check-in with your 4 bodies:

˜       Physical Body:  Are you rested?  Do you have aches and pains?  Do you need to eat better, get more exercise, or maybe slow down a bit?  Check in.  The first thing you think of is the place that needs your attention.

˜       Emotional Body:  What are you feeling?  If you feel sad and need to cry then allow the tears to flow ~ your spirit is asking for cleansing.  If you’re angry, take a look at your boundaries and imagine sending fiery energy into a bright protective barrier all around your body.  Notice how you’re feeling and sit with that emotion so the energy can be released.

˜       Mental Body:  Are you scattered, confused, or locked in a noisy inner world of endless mind chatter?  Are you processing too much information?  Do you need to rest mentally or do you need to learn something new to stoke the fire of your inspiration.   Take a moment and just breathe slowly.

˜       Spiritual Body:  Do you feel overwhelmed or inspired?  Do you feel like you can trust life or are you frozen?  What does your spirit need most right now?  Rest, movement, creativity, silence… whatever you think of first is your answer.

The Call to Blossom

Judgement from the Gilded Tarot

Judgement from the Gilded Tarot

“And the day came when the risk it took to stay tight in the bud was greater than the risk it took to blossom.” ~Anaïs Nin

Judgement is the next to last card of the major arcana in the tarot.  It represents the cleansing, clearing, healing and transitioning that happens when one cycle is ending and another is beginning.  When Judgement calls, you are being beckoned by your Higher Self {or Spirit} to be more authentic, more creative, more generous, more compassionate, and more of YOU.  More energy from Spirit is wanting to flow through you out into the world.  You’re being asked to make room for this by allowing it to flow and cooperating with the transformation that’s in process.

You might feel the call of Judgement as an inner stirring or restlessness in it’s more subtle forms.  A mild discomfort may be nagging at you as you start to dream about new ways to express yourself or wonder more about what your purpose or contribution might be.  If this mild disturbance is ignored and left to simmer for a while it might show up as a deep ache for something more in your life or a depression.  If things have been put off for a long while, the call to emerge may turn into an emergence-y that forces you to transition in a hurry.  Whatever is coming up, you can trust that it is happening in the perfect way and at the perfect time for you.  Your job is to stay spiritually awake and be a witness to your own blossoming.

Judgement always brings about healing of some kind.  It’s healing that can only occur when the wounds have been witnessed and embraced by the cleansing light of consciousness.  It requires taking an inventory of your life, looking honestly at what is working and what is not, examining your shadows, your wounds and embracing every aspect of yourself.  It can feel like a pretty tall order if you approach it from the perspective of “I’m broken and need to fix all these damaged parts”… but that’s not what you’re being asked to do.  Judgement is about bringing all of it into the LIGHT and letting it all be cleansed, healed and reintegrated.

Often this card depicts naked figures emerging out of tombs.  They are being resurrected and called “home” by the angel’s trumpet.  These figures are summoned to a higher octave of existence, and they emerge into that state naked as a symbol of their wholeness and authenticity.  This can also speak to the process of cleansing that requires us to resurrect the shadows we have buried and embrace these fragmented parts of ourselves.  It’s a process that calls for self-love and compassion.  When we embrace the aspects of ourselves that we have been pushing away and resisting, tremendous healing occurs, and we emerge into a new life.

So what does this mean in terms of your day-to-day?  As I said before, it may mean that you are feeling some discomfort, but fighting against it isn’t the answer.  The guidance from Judgement is to take inventory and look at everything with wide-open eyes and a wide-open heart.  The area where you’re feeling the most discomfort is the area to look at first.  For example:   If you feel like you’re finances are a mess, and it scares you to open your bank statements ~ then it’s time to take an honest look at what is going on there and find the shadows that need to be healed.

It’s actually pretty easy to find out where these shadows are.  All you have to do is ask yourself, “What is my judgement of someone who allows their finances to get like this?”  What is your answer?  Do you judge a person like that to be stupid, selfish, irresponsible, or a loser?  Whatever the painful area is, ask yourself this question:  What is my judgement about this?  You’ll soon discover that you have been your own condemning judge and jury all in one, and the process of becoming conscious of these patterns is exactly what is going to free you.  If you’ve been resisting being a “stupid” person, that is your shadow and your job is to love and forgive the “stupid” part of you.  This is what shadow work is all about, and there are many resources available to help you with this process.  Check out any of the books by Debbie Ford for starters, or find a spiritual coach for support.  This journey is worth every ounce of effort because it’s leading you to FREEDOM.

Ultimately, the Judgement card is about freedom from all those inner judgements which turn into shadows and drain away our ability to authentically express our Spirits.  What is Judgement asking you to take a look at?  It may be uncomfortable in the moment, but it’s a sign that something pretty amazing is in the works.  Consider the tiny acorn.  Everything necessary to become an oak tree is packed into this small seed.  It doesn’t have to do anything or go get “oak tree” material from anywhere else.  However, when the time comes, it does have to shed its hard outer shell and allow the seedling to sprout.  It has to transition from being an acorn into a seedling and then into a sapling.  Everything it needs is already within it, but it has to allow the transformation.  When the Judgement card shows up it is time for a transition from self-judgement into self-compassion so that you can blossom and release the amazing YOU that has been bottled up inside. xo

 

Tapping the Treasure of Your Intuition

The High Priestess from the Gilded Tarot

The High Priestess from the Gilded Tarot

The High Priestess has come up during these hot August days to invite you into your own cool inner sanctuary.  She’s all about being inward, and the gifts she brings are heightened intuition, new knowledge, understanding and ultimately… peace.  She wants you to learn something about yourself, and she’s asking you to be still, listen, and pay attention to the subtle magic and miracles that are sparkling all around you.  

It’s a great time to talk about tools to help you trust your inner knower.  The truth is we are all blessed with a sixth sense, and it’s available anytime.  If you’re already pretty aware of this, then The High Priestess is calling you into a quiet space to connect because there’s a message in your “inbox”.  However, if this is a new concept for you… she may be inviting you to learn something that will help you cultivate and strengthen your connection. 

The world we live in doesn’t really support the notion of intuition, and it definitely doesn’t encourage us to slow down and go inward.  We are very busy people struggling to balance what seems like a never-ending stream of worldly demands.  But guess what?  One of the best gifts and secrets that The High Priestess offers is this:  When you learn to work with and trust your intuition it makes everything you do in life easier.  It also makes for a more fun and interesting journey.

You may have a spiritual book of some kind calling to you or a workshop you’ve been thinking about taking.  Maybe you’ve been “trying” to start a meditation practice that hasn’t really taken off.  These are callings with pretty straightforward instructions, but what if you’re just not sure what this means for you?  She may be calling you to cultivate your intuition.  In this case I recommend using an oracle deck of cards.

Years ago my spiritual journey really evolved when I purchased a deck of angel cards and starting pulling one everyday.  Although I was very intuitive, sensitive, and empathic I had never really learned to acknowledge {let alone use} these skills.  In fact, everything I had learned for most of my life had taught me to disregard my intuition and put my faith in the external or “real” world.  This strategy was not working for me. 

I was going from one drama to the next, feeling every blow very deeply.  The first instructions I received for healing involved taking care of my physical body, but as soon as I had reclaimed some of my vitality I knew that I had to eliminate the drains on my spirit. I needed to rekindle my intuition, so I could navigate better in the future. 

The High Priestess called me into my inner sanctuary for a major drama detox and spirit cleanse, and my angel cards became the tools I used to get acquainted with my intuition.  These cards helped me learn the language of my spirit so I could communicate with it more easily.  Later I added more cards {including the Tarot} to my collection and my “vocabulary” grew because my conscious mind learned to interpret the symbols and information coming from my unconscious. 

All of our spirits are fluent in symbolism ~ that’s the language your intuition speaks.  It may come up for you as random words, images, sounds, colors, memories, feelings, or sensations in your body.  It’s unique for each person, but it is there if you start looking for it.  Finding a way to discern what these symbols mean for you is what is important.  Once you agree on a system with your spirit it will work with you. 

I knew nothing about tarot cards when I first began and had a lot of apprehension about them because of scary movies with scenes of gypsies making ominous predictions.  The first thing I learned about the cards was this:  A tarot card or oracle card is a piece of paper with pictures and numbers printed on it… nothing more.  It doesn’t have special powers.  The cards can’t do anything to you.  They simply use archetypal symbolism to help you learn about yourself and your relationship with the world around you.  You have the power, not a paper card.


If this resonates for you, all you have to do is choose a deck you love and draw a card everyday for guidance.   Just use the images to give you messages from your spirit for your highest and best good.  Keeping a journal is a great thing to do too because you can choose your card and then write down all the meanings it has for you.  Over time this practice can go from a learning exercise to a full blown conversation with your highest self and life truly does become magical.  When we let our inner wisdom guide us, we’re always on the best path, so check in and see where The High Priestess is guiding you.  There is amazing treasure waiting to be discovered within.  xo

Willingness Makes Room for the Miracle

The Ace of Swords from the Golden Tarot

The Ace of Swords from the Golden Tarot

Before I dive into the message of the Ace of Swords I want to invite you to take a deep breath.  You might even want to do this a few times because the Ace of Swords is the tarot’s entry into the element of air and our breath is the most basic and fundamental way we can connect with spirit. It’s actually impossible to be stressed out while taking slow deep breaths, and something as simple as breathing is exactly what the Ace of Swords wants you to consider.

It’s the most positive of all the sword cards in the tarot, and I particularly like the Golden Tarot’s images of angels for each of the 4 aces in the deck.  The aces are all about new, unformed energies moving into our lives.  These energies bring raw potential and invite us to act on intuition, be open to new ideas, stay positive, and take first steps even if we’re not exactly sure where it’s all going.  We’re asked to join in the dance with the Divine, loosen up, and enjoy the present moment.

The suit of swords represents the element of air in the tarot.  This is the realm of the mind, and all the other sword cards traditionally depict all the ways we can box ourselves into corners and the varying degrees of difficulty we can conjure up for ourselves when we get stuck in our Intellectual Mind or run by our Ego Mind.  The Ace of Swords, however, speaks to the Holy Mind, and the only thing it asks from us is our willingness to see things from a new perspective.  It is calling for us to be open to shifts in perception.  This may seem small, but these shifts can be total game changers in our lives.

There are times when our minds are simply closed to new insights out of habit, and it isn’t something we can force open using our personal will.  We may think that all our problems would go away if the outside circumstances would change, but in truth, if we’re able to see things differently and have our perceptions altered, then everything would be transformed.  The metamorphosis occurs on the inside and then the outside can shift into alignment with that… not the other way around.

The Ace of Swords invites you to look at the areas of your life that appear to be stuck, frozen, or just not working and instead of wishing for the situation to change ~ ask yourself:  “Am I willing to see this differently?”  You really don’t have to know all the answers, all you have to do is be willing to allow for a new perception.  That willingness has a magical quality to it because it acts as surrender.  Suddenly the tight contractions of the closed mind start to loosen, and a new thought or bright idea lands in your consciousness like a butterfly lighting on a flower.  It’s not about doing it’s about allowing.  The willingness makes room for the miracle.

Here’s a great example of this that I heard recently.  It’s a story that Stephen Covey tells in his classic book the 7 Habits of Highly Effective People, and it illustrates how the shifting of perception can change everything:   He was riding on a subway car that was fairly peaceful and quiet.  At one of the stops a father with two small children boarded the car, and the children were completely out of control.  They were extremely disruptive, and he noticed that everyone on the train was becoming irritated.  The father seemed to be oblivious to the children’s behavior ~ kind of lost in his own world.  He started to get very annoyed by the rude behavior of the children and the apparent disregard of the father.  He got so agitated about it that he finally decided to say something to the father.  He said, “Did you know that your children are disturbing the people on the train?  Could you ask them to sit down?”.  The father looked up and said, “Oh, I’m sorry I didn’t realize.  You see we’re all a little out of it at the moment.  We just left the hospital where their mother died a few hours ago.”

Suddenly, the perception of everything transformed.  Nothing about the situation had changed on the outside.  The children were still behaving badly and the car was still disturbed, but this little piece of knowledge changed his entire approach to the situation.  He defenses melted and his irritation evaporated.  He became compassionate and offered to help in any way he could.

A game-changing insight can come in numerous ways.  It could literally come in the form of a clearer understanding of a circumstance like the story above.  We might take a moment to really listen to what someone else is saying and this gives way to more understanding and connection.  It could come as a sudden inspiration or be generated through a new experience.  Sometimes we feel stuck one moment, but we begin the project and the direction unfolds.  One time I lost my cell phone and spent a whole day frantically doing everything I could to locate it.  I exhausted every possibility and myself in the process, and finally gave up the fight and went to soak in the tub.  As I sat in the warm water and began to just breath and relax suddenly I just knew where my cell phone was.  I remembered exactly where I had put it, and that’s exactly where it was.  All of my searching and worrying about it hadn’t altered the situation one bit.  The cell phone was in that same place all along, but my stress about losing it had distorted my memory and I couldn’t perceive what was true.  All I had to do was provide the willingness {in the form of a quiet moment}, and the fog lifted.  The outside didn’t change, but I did.

A Course in Miracles defines a miracle as a shift in perception.  It isn’t about the Divine swooping in and delivering the lottery or the relationship or the experience we feel we’re lacking ~ it’s about our perceptions being transformed so that we can know the truth, connect with our spirit, and see things clearly.  Then we can get into alignment with our heart’s desires and our external experiences can change in a positive way.  You don’t have to figure it all out.

Where do you need a miracle?  Instead of asking the Universe for a specific outcome, ask for a shift in perception that will lead you where you want to go.  Whenever you are feeling doubt, fear, or tension just say:  ” I am willing to see this differently.  I am willing to witness my discomfort.  I am willing to be still for a moment.”  Take a deep breath, be willing to see things more clearly and let Spirit do the rest.

Many blessings to you! xo

Success and Getting Your “Games” in Sync

The Emperor from the old edition of the Mythic Tarot

The Emperor from the old edition of the Mythic Tarot

The Star from The Golden Tarot

The Star from The Golden Tarot

Well, I did promise The Emperor for my next post, but The Star has come up today, so I will write about them both.  These are cards with very different energies, but some pretty amazing stuff can happen when you combine the two.  They represent your “Outer Game” and your “Inner Game”, and when they are in sync you’re on your way to success.

The Emperor is all about laying foundations.  He is an action-taker, a protector, a planner, and obstacle remover.  When The Emperor comes up, we are being asked to establish a vision and break it down into action steps.  We need to create order, organization and protect our creations with good boundaries as they blossom and grow.

The Star is a card of hope, healing, compassion, success, plentiful supply, and authentic expression.  It’s tender and magical~ a bringer of blessings.  It’s truly a card of Spirit.  It asks us to look within and investigate our deepest heart’s desires and the dreams we hold dearest.  It calls us to see our light even if it seems like a far away twinkle.  It’s there.  The Star also acknowledges that these dearest desires sometimes make us feel the most vulnerable because they mean so much to us.  They can bring up both hope and fear.  We may long for something and at the same time be terrified to even try because the thought of failing is too awful.

In truth, we absolutely need both of these energies for success.  The Star card speaks to our “Inner Game” and The Emperor speaks to our “Outer Game”.  I’d like to say that all of this falls into place in simple, linear steps, but experience tells me that we work on both our “games” simultaneously and progress unfolds in leap frog fashion.

For example, you may have a great idea for a business and be the kind of person who likes to dive right in and figure things out as you go.  You take that glimmer of star light {your inspiration} and get your emperor energy going full steam ahead ~ your “Outer Game” is coming along.  As you progress, however, you may start running into situations that require you to work on your “Inner Game”.  Maybe you discover that you avoid doing certain tasks, that communication isn’t great, and that your business gets stuck and stalled because the same problems keep cropping up again and again.  Maybe you’re afraid to ask for help, or have difficulty trusting other people.  These are all inner issues, and they’ll need to be resolved if you want to move forward.  Your outer game focus has ultimately led you right back to your inner world.

Or… maybe you are the kind of person who has been tending to your inner life diligently.  You have been connecting with your spirit, clearing wounds, and learning to love yourself in a quiet, introverted kind of way.  You also get glimmers of star light and inspiration.  You know what you love to do, and you’ve harnessed your emperor energy to help you do it out of a commitment to your own growth.  Maybe you have created something very beautiful as a result, but this gorgeous inner life is now pushing against your edges and wanting you to expand more.  It’s time to  share what you do with other people in some way and even though this may seem very scary, it’s time to get your “Outer Game” in order so you can let your light be seen in a bigger way.

Oftentimes these aren’t static scenarios.  We all go through periods where our focus is on one game or the other, but they are both important.  As we nurture our dreams, keep the hope alive within us, and move forward in faith, beautiful things come to be.  The Star will ultimately push you into the world in some way.  You may need to see your own beauty first in order to have the courage step out.  Your experience may be like the quote by Anaïs Nin ” And the day came when the risk it took to stay tight in a bud was greater than the risk it took to blossom.”

The Emperor will ask you to act first and learn by doing, but every step is leading you to discover something wonderful about yourself.  This energy will lead you to your beauty, your talents, and your self-esteem as you go about building and creating.  He won’t reward haphazard or disorganized doing, however.  He wants you to make a plan, take action that is informed by your truest desires, and not skip any steps.  There are valuable experiences and gifts to be gained in every action he asks you to take.

In a way, both of these cards ask you to push past your comfortable edges, and my sense is that many of us are feeling this right now.  Take a look at where the imbalances are showing up in your life, and you’ll get a pretty good idea of which card is speaking to you most today.  Do you need The Emperor to help you step out, take care of some business you’ve been avoiding and make a plan?  Or do you need The Star to bring you back to yourself for a visit to that magical pool of hope and possibility?

Most often, I find that we need a little bit of both.   We need to trust that our deepest dreams have come from spirit.  Those desires are the seeds of your potential.  They are clues to your authentic purpose and a promise that you have what it takes to manifest it.  You wouldn’t have the vision if you didn’t already possess the gifts needed to achieve it.  The Star promises that the gold is there, and The Emperor hands you a shovel and helps you make a plan to find it.  Embrace them both and happy digging! xo

The Heart of Creativity

One of my favorite things to do - doodling

One of my favorite things to do – doodling

My spirit is calling me to talk about creativity today.  Most of my posts have been related in some way or other to the Tarot, and I often post my artwork or a photograph I’ve taken of the card.  Until now I’ve never spoken directly about my work as an artist, but the journey to express myself creatively has been healing and extremely gratifying.  I have always been pulled to do creative things, but it took me a long time to fully embrace that part of myself.

When I was 27 my late husband, Chris, gave me a copy of The Artist’s Way by Julia Cameron and about that same time I discovered another wonderful book called Simple Abundance by Sarah Ban Breathnach.  I know that I didn’t fully “get” everything these women were talking about at the time, but I kept going back to these books.  I still revisit them from time to time, and this is why:  Julia Cameron helped me understand that I wasn’t alone in feeling creatively blocked, and that it was absolutely possible to awaken that part of myself.  She also gave me tools that I still use.

Sarah Ban Breathnach planted the tiny seed of an idea:  that gratitude and self-nurture could transform my life.  Both of these books introduced me to the concept that there might be something truly wonderful, unique, and beautiful inside of me just waiting to emerge.  I had a lot of inner criticism and mental garbage to wade through at the time… but I had that tiny glimmer of hope that kept pulling me forward towards discovering what those gifts might be.

It took me a while to get over myself enough to be a beginner.  The ego hates that, you know.  But my creative spirit needed to emerge.  I heard someone say last week, “the pain pushes until the vision pulls” and that absolutely describes my experience.  The pain of not allowing myself to express creatively kept pushing me forward.  It pushed me into classes and to craft fairs.  It pushed me set up a studio, carve out time in my life, unplug from drama and tend to my inner artist.  I was pretty stubborn, and there was a lot of resistance to jack hammer through….but then the vision started to pull me into my creativity.  It started to feel necessary, like dinner.

For me the path of creativity ran parallel with my journey to cultivate my intuition.  In fact, one of the reasons that I was so captivated by the Tarot was that the archetypal themes went right to my creative center.  They stirred my imagination into action in a positive way.  I had become very good at using my imagination to generate worry, but now I had a productive outlet for this energy and beautiful things started to come forth.  I learned that expressing myself creatively was healing, and now it’s part of my spiritual practice every bit as much as meditation.

I had the wonderful experience this weekend of indulging in a workshop with Suzi Baum, my neighbor, friend, and all around Renaissance woman.  You can check out what she’s up to on her blog: www.laundrylinedivine.com.  Sitting with a group of women writing, doodling, and sharing really fed my spirit.  We did these things just to see what would emerge.  There was no agenda, just exploration… and it occurred to me that this is really the heart of creativity ~ to explore oneself and make what you find visible to others in some way.  The little doodle pictured above is part of what I did that afternoon.

I’ll add here, that even though my own path has involved literally picking up a paintbrush {or pen} and expressing in that sense I believe that we are all creative.    Perhaps you love to cook, garden, or write.  Maybe you love sewing, knitting, or decorating.  You might enjoy the art of golf or creating a meaningful yoga practice.  Your business can even be a creative outlet with endless possibilities.

Whatever you are doing, you are creating the life you are living.  You are creating the quality of your days, the connection in your relationships, the essence of every moment you spend.  I believe that these moments are opportunities to allow our inner riches to come forth.  Whatever you are doing to give voice to your spirit is worthwhile.  It doesn’t have to have a an obvious purpose right up front.  If it lights you up in some way it’s a beautiful thing.  I’ll leave you with an invitation to explore that part of yourself in some way along with one of my favorite quotes:

“Make visible what, without you, might perhaps never be seen. ” ~Robert Bresson

I’ll be posting again in a few days all about The Emperor.  In the meantime have a wonderful 4th of July!! xo

Keep Going… You’re Almost There!

9 of Wands from the Golden Tarot

9 of Wands from the Golden Tarot

Are you feeling a little road weary these days?  Does it feel like you are putting one foot in front of the other {and maybe you’ve been doing this for quite a long time}, but you never seem to get “there”?  That’s exactly what the 9 of Wands is all about.  In this particular version of the card there is a wounded soldier who paints a good picture of what it means to keep “soldiering on”.  The refuge of his destination is in site, but he still has a ways to go before he reaches it.  It’s that “so close, and yet, so far” moment that I think we can all relate to in one way or another.  It’s also a moment when we may feel tempted to give up… when we feel victimized by our circumstances and nothing we seem to do is getting us anywhere.  Simply put, we’re tired, and inspiration is running low.

I know that I certainly relate to this situation, and whenever I get the 9 of Wands I know that in some way I’m being acknowledged by the Divine.  After all – this card is from the suit of wands which represents the element of fire in the tarot.  It’s a symbol of Divine inspiration, Divine guidance, and Divine intervention.  The first thing this card tells us is:  “You are not alone”.  I always find this to be comforting because part of the weariness and defeat we’re talking about here comes from a sense that we are disconnected, doing everything on our own, perhaps even abandoned – and this feels pretty awful.  It’s the voice of the ego mind that tells us this, and it reminds me of a scene from Harry Potter {I love HP}.

In the Order of the Phoenix, Harry is struggling with feeling alone on his journey.  He’s discovered that a lot is riding on him, he knows the truth of his situation, and he feels isolated and misunderstood by just about everyone.  At one particularly low point, he ends up having a conversation with a new friend, Luna Lovegood.  She tells him that she believes in him.  She also says that if she were Voldemort {the bad guy- if you’re not familiar with HP}, she’d want him to feel alone because then he’s not as threatening that way.  That voice of Voldemort is like the ego – it doesn’t like change, it was never on board with this journey you began, and it wants nothing more than for you to give up so it can stay in power.

The 9 of Wands calls out that Voldemort-ish ego out into the light and brings an infusion of hope.  It’s saying: “I believe in you.  You are on the right path!  You are doing marvelous things, and you are doing more than you even realize.”  It’s a sign that you have simply bumped into an internal threshold, and it’s telling you where you need to persevere so you can break through your own patterns of resistance.

It’s not time to give up – it’s time to keep going!  The 9 of Wands is bringing you the gift of encouragement and inspiration to sustain you along the way, and it promises that there is a bigger picture that you just can’t see yet… so guess what?  You’ve got to TRUST.

You may feel that you’re lost in a maze with very high hedges and very little light.  Maybe you’ve been winding your way through this particular maze for a long while… but your higher self has a much broader view of everything.  It can see exactly where you are in the maze, and it knows that you’re only a few yards from the exit – you just can’t see it yet.  The 9 of Wands is a little message from your spirit that says, “Keep walking!   You are almost there, and I’ve got your back – you are not alone.”

So how can you find the gifts of this message as it applies to your own life?  Take a few minutes and ask yourself these questions:

~What is going on right now that makes me feel defeated? 

~Do I always get stuck and want to quit when I get to this point in a project or a relationship?  See if you can zero in on what that is because it’s valuable information about your threshold.

~Where am I resisting or procrastinating?  What step am I just not wanting to take?  The answer to this question tells you what you need to do.  If you’re resisting sitting at the computer and working on that book, then you need to write the first sentence.  If you’re resisting a project, you need to make that phone call or work on whatever task you’re avoiding. 

~How would I feel if I knew this task, project, or situation was completed, started, or resolved?  Focus on the feeling that comes up and let that be the inspiration that keeps you moving forward.  Progress may feel slow, but every step you take is one step closer to liberation. 

When the 9 of Wands shows up it is telling you that you’re moving through a place where you normally get stuck.  It’s a message in a bottle from your Higher Self saying, “You’ve got what it takes to make it through, and you’re so close!”  It’s a moment to trust.  Trust that you wouldn’t have the desire to move in this direction in the first place if you weren’t already blessed with everything you needed to get there.  You are in the process of bursting out of your cocoon and your spirit is cheering you on.  You’ve got this!  You can do it!  Just keep putting one foot in front of the other and know that you’re almost there. xo