What You Want, Wants You

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What you want, wants you…

is a reminder of how Universal Law works.  It means that those deep soul desires and the things you’ve been wanting to create are actually available to you.  It means the thing you  want most is also wanting to come into your life.

All week long this message has been popping up in my mind, and it has been just the encouragement I needed to keep going.  This is often the kind of thought that inspires me to create, and as I worked on this piece the other day, I felt this message go deeper into my bones… so I wanted to share.

“All things are one. And when you want something, all the Universe conspires in helping you achieve it.” -Paulo Coelho, The Alchemist

In the past, I had trouble believing this.  In fact, I’d say a lot of the time I felt like I was having to push and struggle and strive to get what I wanted.  I felt like I had to justify wanting it, deserve it, work hard for it… and even then, I might not get it.

This is the way we’re often taught to approach life – and this is exactly what we end up getting:  struggle and disappointment.  It creates a lot of blocks in our flow.

When we live like this it causes a misalignment with our soul and a deep misunderstanding of our power.  It’s also very common… so many of us keep struggling away.

What you want, wants you is telling you that your desires are little love letters from your soul.  They are the glimmers and clues of what is there to be explore and uncovered. 

For example:  If you have been dreaming of being an artist… on some level you know it.  Maybe you’ve always found it interesting.  Or you’ve always lit up in art supply stores or have always wanted to write or draw or paint.  Even if you don’t believe you’re particularly talented at art yet…you keep thinking about it and have a desire to make things.

If you have a desire – you also have the gifts and means to manifest it.

We don’t have desires for things that are out of alignment with our souls… the Universe doesn’t work that way.  If you have a soul desire for an experience – then you already possess the keys to opening the door to that experience.  You still have to start where you are though.  You may have to learn something new, take new action, or put forth effort to develop a skill set.

Manifestation always requires effort, but a soul desire tells you that there’s something worth investigating and trying out, and there will be pleasure and empowerment in that effort rather than hard work and struggle.  

You’ll know it’s a soul desire because these are the things you deeply want to create {you know, the stuff you keep dreaming about, putting on your vision boards and taking classes to learn more about, etc}.  Your soul generates those desires because it’s whole purpose is to have experiences that give you an opportunity to expand and use your soul gifts.

Of course the ego can want stuff too… but there’s a big difference in an ego attached goal and true soul desires.  Usually an ego goal involves pleasing other people, getting another person to do something or doing things that aren’t a good fit.  Ego goals don’t light us up, they don’t energize us, they don’t inspire us.  In fact, ego goals usually take us out of our “zone of genius” and often don’t take into consideration what brings us joy.

Reminding yourself that what you want, wants you can actually help you work through the very real ego resistance that often kicks up when we start taking action to realize our soul desires.  It’s a promise that it’s worth the effort to align with your soul gifts because they aren’t separate from you.  Your soul gifts ARE YOU.  Your soul desires ARE YOU.  So you really already have them and they simply want to be uncovered and put to use.

The Universe IS YOU too… and it is conspiring in your favor.  So listen to those little messages, follow those breadcrumbs and take action on those inner nudges from intuition.  You are amazing and powerful – you can create anything you want, but you have to believe it and support it.  Your desires don’t come TO you… they come THROUGH you.

“Whatever you think you can do, or believe you can do… begin it, because action has magic, grace and power in it.”  -Johann Wolfgang von Goethe

 

 

True Courage and the Power of Your Inner Wildness

Strength from the Druid Craft Tarot

Strength from the Druid Craft Tarot

Strength is the 8th card of the Major Arcana and traditionally depicts a young woman with her arms around a lion.  This Druid inspired deck depicts a boar instead of a big cat, but in both cards the symbol is one of tamed power.  The lesson of this card is about merging with and harnessing the feral aspects of one’s soul and making friends with that wildness.  The message it brings is: Your strength lies in your ability to have faith, let go, and work from the inside out rather than the outside in.  Strength lies in authenticity and honesty with yourself and others.  It’s time to stop playing roles for other people.  It’s time to start moving through the world with solid, grounded footsteps, taking good care of your body, being very truthful with yourself and wide awake with your emotions.

When you tap into the powerful, fiery energy of Strength, you feel courageous.   Your passions come alive and you have everything you need to see them through ~ not because you’re working hard to create that force, but because you are harmoniously allowing it to flow through you.  Ultimately it teaches that true strength lies in wholeness, and the way to wholeness is through gentle self-compassion.

How does this wildness show up?  In the negative, it shows up when we’re weak-willed, numbed-out, or addicted ~ that’s when it’s ruling us.  In the positive, it brings about passion and inspiration ~ that’s when we’re in harmony with it.  The Strength card is about realizing that we need to be awake and aware of what is going on in our physical bodies, emotional bodies, mental and spiritual bodies.  It’s time as Mary Oliver puts it, “… to let the warm animal of your body love what it loves.”  This will lead you right into knowing where you belong in the “family of things” {from the poem “Wild Geese”}.  Strength wants us to integrate all our scattered pieces through deep and abiding self-compassion.  You don’t tame the beast by beating it down ~ you tame it through love and acceptance. 

Let the crisp cold air of winter help you wake up and notice where you’ve been checking out.  Let your honest and authentic self be what shows up in the world.  Strength is about reclaiming self-esteem and channeling that energy into your true passions.  When you’re embodying this lesson you won’t have to go to battle, defend yourself, and fight to be strong.  You’ll know that your strength resides in your authentic nature.  You have accepted and lovingly tamed the parts of you that seemed wild, unacceptable, or out of control by loving them ~ a truly bold and courageous act.

Here’s a checklist to help you check-in with your 4 bodies:

˜       Physical Body:  Are you rested?  Do you have aches and pains?  Do you need to eat better, get more exercise, or maybe slow down a bit?  Check in.  The first thing you think of is the place that needs your attention.

˜       Emotional Body:  What are you feeling?  If you feel sad and need to cry then allow the tears to flow ~ your spirit is asking for cleansing.  If you’re angry, take a look at your boundaries and imagine sending fiery energy into a bright protective barrier all around your body.  Notice how you’re feeling and sit with that emotion so the energy can be released.

˜       Mental Body:  Are you scattered, confused, or locked in a noisy inner world of endless mind chatter?  Are you processing too much information?  Do you need to rest mentally or do you need to learn something new to stoke the fire of your inspiration.   Take a moment and just breathe slowly.

˜       Spiritual Body:  Do you feel overwhelmed or inspired?  Do you feel like you can trust life or are you frozen?  What does your spirit need most right now?  Rest, movement, creativity, silence… whatever you think of first is your answer.

Plant Seeds and Pull Weeds

Ace of Coins from the Golden Tarot

Ace of Coins from the Golden Tarot

Does life feel like a bit of a roller coaster ride these days?  Maybe you’re having great moments followed by moments of zero inspiration, with spasms of fear and worry thrown in at regular intervals?  I’ve been hearing a lot of spiritual teachers and New Thought leaders talking about “Ascension Symptoms”, and from what I’ve learned, that roller coaster experience just about covers it.  Basically, this comes from the observation that the energy on the planet has shifted and increased in a pretty major way starting in December of 2012.  Even if you’re not a “woo woo” kind of person who gives much thought to such things, you’re probably feeling some sort of change in your life over the past year or so.  I hear people remark frequently that they can’t believe how fast the time is flying by, or they can’t believe the political situations, or they can’t believe how many people are suffering in their relationships or with their finances.  I also hear a lot of stories about miraculous events ~ major epiphanies that are transforming relationships, vulnerable moments that are opening hearts, and acts of generosity that completely amaze and inspire me.

So… what does all this have to do with The Ace of Coins?  I had to pause and ask myself that question when I first pulled this card, but it is becoming more and more clear that we are in a time of learning to do things a new way ~ and that’s exactly what this card is reminding us.  The Aces in the tarot are about new energies, opportunities, ways of seeing and doing.  These cards guide us to plant or tend new seeds in one way or another, but the analogy of the garden is most appropriate for The Ace of Coins {also called Pentacles} because this is the suit that represents the element of Earth.  This card is literally about learning by doing.  When it shows up, the guidance is to take some sort of action even if it’s just a baby step because this is how you become a master gardener.  You have to plant something in the ground and have the experience of tending it to really “get” it.

Many times we have a big vision or a dream, but we don’t take the actions necessary to give it traction or grow it into anything.  When this happens we are failing to plant the seeds and then wondering why nothing is growing.  Maybe we are waiting until all the conditions are “right” i. e. we’re in the mood, we’ve got more time, we know more, or we’ve got more support.  The thing is… most of the time all those things don’t just fall into place on their own.  Planting the seeds is about creating the congruent conditions that will ground your dream and help you make it a reality.

So that leads me to the part about pulling the weeds…  Sometimes we don’t plant our seeds at all {nothing grows}; sometimes we plant them and forget about them {they grow a little and die of neglect}; and sometimes we plant more than we can manage {a huge harvest that is overwhelming and we get lost}.  In all three of these scenarios the weeds just start taking over.  If your little garden plot is already full of weeds, you won’t be able to plant anything.  If you neglect what you’ve planted, the weeds will take it over and kill it; and if your garden is overwhelming ~ even if it’s not a weed, you may need to thin out the plot so everything can grow better and stronger.

What are the weeds?  The weeds I’m talking about include the inner resistance you feel that blocks you from taking the positive actions you know would benefit you.  These are the limiting beliefs and self-talk that sabotage and undermine you. Here are a few weeds I’ve learned to identify, maybe some of these will sound familiar to you:

The Never Get Started Weed says:  “You don’t know enough, You aren’t talented enough, Who do you think you are?, You can’t do it, What will people think?, What if they judge me? What if I fail? etc.”

The Neglect Weed says: “Just give up, This isn’t going to grow into anything, This is stupid, You’re being selfish by working on your project ~ there are other people who need you, This isn’t important unless I can make money doing it right now, This isn’t important. period. You can only do this when all your other chores are finished, Everything and everyone else comes first, etc.”

The Overgrown Weed says: “You have to say yes to everything so people will like you, You have to do it ALL so no one is ever disappointed, If you miss an opportunity you’ll fail and there won’t ever be another one, If you don’t do it perfectly you’re a failure, Never let them see you sweat, Who needs sleep, food, pleasure?… this work is the important stuff!, Who needs sleep, food, pleasure?… I’m a __________ (Mother, provider, employee, etc.) other people are depending on me, etc.”

The truth is, we all have weeds that need to be pulled, and we’re actually in a great season to be cleaning out and clearing space for the gardens we’d like to see in the spring.  So where are your weeds?  If it’s hard to imagine a life without them or you’re having trouble determining where they are, your first Ace of Coins action step is to find a tool and USE it or find a coach to help you and DO the work that is suggested.  If you’re stalled on a project and feel muddled and cloudy thinking that’s making it hard to see a small action step that you can take, you might try “mind mapping” where you “dump” all your jumbled thoughts out on paper so you can see what’s there in a tangible form.  This action isn’t about making a to do list ~ it’s about cleaning up the mental clutter and it only works if you DO it.  You can’t think about it and get the same effect.  If you’re overbooked and spread thin, your action step is to say “No” to at least 3 things and give yourself some space…. and if you’re hiding out and avoiding planting seeds because you’re afraid of failing, your action step is to say “Yes” to something that scares your pants off.

The Ace of Coins is here to encourage you to be bold and take action that supports your higher vision.  Don’t let the weeds win!  You have a beautiful garden that is ready and waiting to burst forth into full bloom.  You can turn those weeds into nourishing mulch, but you have to DO something so you can really benefit from the experience of seeing the magic first hand. xo

 

Willingness Makes Room for the Miracle

The Ace of Swords from the Golden Tarot

The Ace of Swords from the Golden Tarot

Before I dive into the message of the Ace of Swords I want to invite you to take a deep breath.  You might even want to do this a few times because the Ace of Swords is the tarot’s entry into the element of air and our breath is the most basic and fundamental way we can connect with spirit. It’s actually impossible to be stressed out while taking slow deep breaths, and something as simple as breathing is exactly what the Ace of Swords wants you to consider.

It’s the most positive of all the sword cards in the tarot, and I particularly like the Golden Tarot’s images of angels for each of the 4 aces in the deck.  The aces are all about new, unformed energies moving into our lives.  These energies bring raw potential and invite us to act on intuition, be open to new ideas, stay positive, and take first steps even if we’re not exactly sure where it’s all going.  We’re asked to join in the dance with the Divine, loosen up, and enjoy the present moment.

The suit of swords represents the element of air in the tarot.  This is the realm of the mind, and all the other sword cards traditionally depict all the ways we can box ourselves into corners and the varying degrees of difficulty we can conjure up for ourselves when we get stuck in our Intellectual Mind or run by our Ego Mind.  The Ace of Swords, however, speaks to the Holy Mind, and the only thing it asks from us is our willingness to see things from a new perspective.  It is calling for us to be open to shifts in perception.  This may seem small, but these shifts can be total game changers in our lives.

There are times when our minds are simply closed to new insights out of habit, and it isn’t something we can force open using our personal will.  We may think that all our problems would go away if the outside circumstances would change, but in truth, if we’re able to see things differently and have our perceptions altered, then everything would be transformed.  The metamorphosis occurs on the inside and then the outside can shift into alignment with that… not the other way around.

The Ace of Swords invites you to look at the areas of your life that appear to be stuck, frozen, or just not working and instead of wishing for the situation to change ~ ask yourself:  “Am I willing to see this differently?”  You really don’t have to know all the answers, all you have to do is be willing to allow for a new perception.  That willingness has a magical quality to it because it acts as surrender.  Suddenly the tight contractions of the closed mind start to loosen, and a new thought or bright idea lands in your consciousness like a butterfly lighting on a flower.  It’s not about doing it’s about allowing.  The willingness makes room for the miracle.

Here’s a great example of this that I heard recently.  It’s a story that Stephen Covey tells in his classic book the 7 Habits of Highly Effective People, and it illustrates how the shifting of perception can change everything:   He was riding on a subway car that was fairly peaceful and quiet.  At one of the stops a father with two small children boarded the car, and the children were completely out of control.  They were extremely disruptive, and he noticed that everyone on the train was becoming irritated.  The father seemed to be oblivious to the children’s behavior ~ kind of lost in his own world.  He started to get very annoyed by the rude behavior of the children and the apparent disregard of the father.  He got so agitated about it that he finally decided to say something to the father.  He said, “Did you know that your children are disturbing the people on the train?  Could you ask them to sit down?”.  The father looked up and said, “Oh, I’m sorry I didn’t realize.  You see we’re all a little out of it at the moment.  We just left the hospital where their mother died a few hours ago.”

Suddenly, the perception of everything transformed.  Nothing about the situation had changed on the outside.  The children were still behaving badly and the car was still disturbed, but this little piece of knowledge changed his entire approach to the situation.  He defenses melted and his irritation evaporated.  He became compassionate and offered to help in any way he could.

A game-changing insight can come in numerous ways.  It could literally come in the form of a clearer understanding of a circumstance like the story above.  We might take a moment to really listen to what someone else is saying and this gives way to more understanding and connection.  It could come as a sudden inspiration or be generated through a new experience.  Sometimes we feel stuck one moment, but we begin the project and the direction unfolds.  One time I lost my cell phone and spent a whole day frantically doing everything I could to locate it.  I exhausted every possibility and myself in the process, and finally gave up the fight and went to soak in the tub.  As I sat in the warm water and began to just breath and relax suddenly I just knew where my cell phone was.  I remembered exactly where I had put it, and that’s exactly where it was.  All of my searching and worrying about it hadn’t altered the situation one bit.  The cell phone was in that same place all along, but my stress about losing it had distorted my memory and I couldn’t perceive what was true.  All I had to do was provide the willingness {in the form of a quiet moment}, and the fog lifted.  The outside didn’t change, but I did.

A Course in Miracles defines a miracle as a shift in perception.  It isn’t about the Divine swooping in and delivering the lottery or the relationship or the experience we feel we’re lacking ~ it’s about our perceptions being transformed so that we can know the truth, connect with our spirit, and see things clearly.  Then we can get into alignment with our heart’s desires and our external experiences can change in a positive way.  You don’t have to figure it all out.

Where do you need a miracle?  Instead of asking the Universe for a specific outcome, ask for a shift in perception that will lead you where you want to go.  Whenever you are feeling doubt, fear, or tension just say:  ” I am willing to see this differently.  I am willing to witness my discomfort.  I am willing to be still for a moment.”  Take a deep breath, be willing to see things more clearly and let Spirit do the rest.

Many blessings to you! xo

Keep Going… You’re Almost There!

9 of Wands from the Golden Tarot

9 of Wands from the Golden Tarot

Are you feeling a little road weary these days?  Does it feel like you are putting one foot in front of the other {and maybe you’ve been doing this for quite a long time}, but you never seem to get “there”?  That’s exactly what the 9 of Wands is all about.  In this particular version of the card there is a wounded soldier who paints a good picture of what it means to keep “soldiering on”.  The refuge of his destination is in site, but he still has a ways to go before he reaches it.  It’s that “so close, and yet, so far” moment that I think we can all relate to in one way or another.  It’s also a moment when we may feel tempted to give up… when we feel victimized by our circumstances and nothing we seem to do is getting us anywhere.  Simply put, we’re tired, and inspiration is running low.

I know that I certainly relate to this situation, and whenever I get the 9 of Wands I know that in some way I’m being acknowledged by the Divine.  After all – this card is from the suit of wands which represents the element of fire in the tarot.  It’s a symbol of Divine inspiration, Divine guidance, and Divine intervention.  The first thing this card tells us is:  “You are not alone”.  I always find this to be comforting because part of the weariness and defeat we’re talking about here comes from a sense that we are disconnected, doing everything on our own, perhaps even abandoned – and this feels pretty awful.  It’s the voice of the ego mind that tells us this, and it reminds me of a scene from Harry Potter {I love HP}.

In the Order of the Phoenix, Harry is struggling with feeling alone on his journey.  He’s discovered that a lot is riding on him, he knows the truth of his situation, and he feels isolated and misunderstood by just about everyone.  At one particularly low point, he ends up having a conversation with a new friend, Luna Lovegood.  She tells him that she believes in him.  She also says that if she were Voldemort {the bad guy- if you’re not familiar with HP}, she’d want him to feel alone because then he’s not as threatening that way.  That voice of Voldemort is like the ego – it doesn’t like change, it was never on board with this journey you began, and it wants nothing more than for you to give up so it can stay in power.

The 9 of Wands calls out that Voldemort-ish ego out into the light and brings an infusion of hope.  It’s saying: “I believe in you.  You are on the right path!  You are doing marvelous things, and you are doing more than you even realize.”  It’s a sign that you have simply bumped into an internal threshold, and it’s telling you where you need to persevere so you can break through your own patterns of resistance.

It’s not time to give up – it’s time to keep going!  The 9 of Wands is bringing you the gift of encouragement and inspiration to sustain you along the way, and it promises that there is a bigger picture that you just can’t see yet… so guess what?  You’ve got to TRUST.

You may feel that you’re lost in a maze with very high hedges and very little light.  Maybe you’ve been winding your way through this particular maze for a long while… but your higher self has a much broader view of everything.  It can see exactly where you are in the maze, and it knows that you’re only a few yards from the exit – you just can’t see it yet.  The 9 of Wands is a little message from your spirit that says, “Keep walking!   You are almost there, and I’ve got your back – you are not alone.”

So how can you find the gifts of this message as it applies to your own life?  Take a few minutes and ask yourself these questions:

~What is going on right now that makes me feel defeated? 

~Do I always get stuck and want to quit when I get to this point in a project or a relationship?  See if you can zero in on what that is because it’s valuable information about your threshold.

~Where am I resisting or procrastinating?  What step am I just not wanting to take?  The answer to this question tells you what you need to do.  If you’re resisting sitting at the computer and working on that book, then you need to write the first sentence.  If you’re resisting a project, you need to make that phone call or work on whatever task you’re avoiding. 

~How would I feel if I knew this task, project, or situation was completed, started, or resolved?  Focus on the feeling that comes up and let that be the inspiration that keeps you moving forward.  Progress may feel slow, but every step you take is one step closer to liberation. 

When the 9 of Wands shows up it is telling you that you’re moving through a place where you normally get stuck.  It’s a message in a bottle from your Higher Self saying, “You’ve got what it takes to make it through, and you’re so close!”  It’s a moment to trust.  Trust that you wouldn’t have the desire to move in this direction in the first place if you weren’t already blessed with everything you needed to get there.  You are in the process of bursting out of your cocoon and your spirit is cheering you on.  You’ve got this!  You can do it!  Just keep putting one foot in front of the other and know that you’re almost there. xo